Long time, no see. Made worse by me being away and him being away and then me going away again this weekend. I'm used to hours and hours of contact each day, and now I'm lucky to get maybe a few moments and some days there is no contact at all. It's killing me, I hate it. It's awful to be this far apart for this long. It's been four and a half weeks since I saw him last, and it's far, far too long for me.
Maybe the whole situation is exacerbated by the fact that the last few weeks have been very busy and stressful for both of us, for different reasons, so I've wound up feeling very needy and clingy. I don't like feeling needy and clingy - that's not what I'm usually like. Usually I'm independent and self-reliant, but I find myself feeling quite the opposite at the moment. I wait for the smallest word from him, and I worry that maybe my feelings exceed his. I've no reason for this, no hints or clues or anything. No basis at all. It's just paranoia brought on by limerance.
Of course, the moment he does come online, all my fears evaporate. I'm smiling again, happy, able to deal with anything and everything. All is right with the world.
*sigh*
I got it bad, eh?
